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Yesterday was the most frustrated day of my life.
It was my first handling a trip to Kg. Sg. Bumbun Pulau Carey.
I had a high expectation that everything is going to be well according to plan.
But, it all became thrash. We did not get the mask we want.
We did not get to learn the Mahmeri dance. What I can say is that it was a 'bullshit' trip.
Im also frustrated because my club mate did not received what they should gotten which is a well-deserved entertainment.
I feel so frustrated that I would runaway from them forever.
It is so frustrating. Why is this happening.
The event leaves a bad impression of me to them.
I'm such bad event manager..
I could died because of this...

something to cherish about....

i am part of them......i like the design, seriously...LOVE IT!!

I know where I am going....

I know where I am going. Is that true? I have made a big decision to continue my study in Degree in TeSL, UiTM. Do you think it is that big? For me, yes it is. This is a 'once a life time' decision which will lead me to my destiny. TESL is my calling. I am determine to do it and I am going for it. But, why UiTM? People has been calling UiTM with lots of unacceptable names. Some people just condemn the institution and think that it is just where the Malays having fun. I don't care about what they say about UiTM. Because I know the real Uitm. The one year I had during my foundation in UiTM was my best year ever. I owe so much to my lecturers, UiTM staffs and buddies who have helped me along those hard and rocky path.

U guys know what??.... I am going to finish my studies here. I don't care what would PEOPLE say..



ENCIK ABU BAKAR from LINTON COLLEGE!! You have no right to condemn my ideal place of higher institution! You even called our previous prime minister wrongly when you referred to him as Badawi. Have u no idea that Badawi is his father?? Please lah encik. I know u were just doing ur job as a promoter BUT u have no right of provoking other people and condemn other institution. What?? Studying in the oversea is better?? Ouh, PLease....U narrow-minded Encik Abu Bakar.. Malaysia has the same level education as any other developed countries. Don't u ever try to condemn on Malaysian Education to other countries. If our level of education is that bad, where do all our ministers come from?? Still, they are the product of Malaysia itself.
When u talk about those 'trash' about our local education, have u ever thought about ur own self? Aren't u ur self a Malaysian? Or are u NOT???

ENCIK ABU BAKAR..I have a reminder for: Watch out for ur own words. Be careful or else it will get back to u!!!!!



The first reason I was interested in TESL is the fact that it trains me to sosialise with people. I want to do something for my comunity. I want to help them. This is the only way I can help them. I don't have money to buy them food and stuff. I don't have what it takes to become politicion in order to fight for their right. The only thing that I can offer them is "EDUCATION". To be precise English. I am not doing TESL just for myself but for my parents, Allah and people. Hopefully, my good intention will be blessed by Allah. I need strength to face all these.



I used to be unsure when people ask me about becoming an English teacher.
But now...What can I say. Yes, I am going to become an English teacher..BRING IT ON! Yeahhh!....



:D......

Thomas and Uber....cup of tea....

YOu guys know, what cup are these? These are the very 'chased after' CUPs in the world. THOMAS is for the men while UBER is for the women..:))


Last night, the Malaysian player lost to the Japanese. A 3-2 lost. It is quite a disappointment to the nation and many people show their unsatisfaction through facebook and other stuff. I watched the game but I was only focused on 'Hafiz Hashim vs Sato' s game. I am very curious about Hafiz. He was the 2003 All-England Champion but he seemed to be a bit fragile with his performance. I believe many Malaysians are being curious about him. He is one of the most successful malay badminton players besides the Sidek's brothers. After the 2003 All-England, he seemed to be drowning.



Hafiz Hashim. the 2003 All-England Open Champion.
Somehow, as a Malaysian and a badminton fan, I have faith in him. He is just a normal human being like each and one of us. The different is, he carries the burden of our nation to the world stage. Why not we let him stand back on his feet and prove to us that he has what it takes to be a champion. If only he can read my blog right now. I just want him to know that we Malaysian just want him to enjoy the game and do the best he can to grab that Thomas cup of tea for Malaysia just like how he did for the 2003 All-England Open .We all know that it is stressful but with our support, HE CAN DO IT!!. Go Hafiz!! We have your back...:)





Now, we have Datuk Lee Chong Wei. He is a great example of a very resilient person. He is the backbone of our team. He is very high-spirited and he is willing to do anything for the nation. what i was touched was the fact that he speaks our national language whenever he is interviewed by any reporter. He is the true model of 1 Malaysia!! Thank u Chong Wei..(p/s: if only he read this..Im watching him playing against Peter Gade..)...:))






At last, the legendary Sidek Brothers.. ( they are some kind of the Warner Brothers huh in the sports arena..). I remember of reading their comics since I was 5. The age where I started to read very well. Actually, I learn to read through their comcs... Oupps..the lightning.....


to be continued...........:)

today....after yesterday..

Yes, the result was out and I got the interview. It was hard for me to press the 'enter' key after typing my IC number. Only Allah Knows how relieved I am. It has been a nightmare for me after the catastrophe which had befallen me earlier. Who would not break down when their hopes and dreams are shattered just like that. I have been through it. So, I know how my some of my friends feel when they din get the interview. I feel like breaking down like them too but, there is no use. Enough of disappointment. I need a drive to reach for my dreams. I have been disappointed for lots of time and I am going to make sure that this time, I will not be disappointed anymore. Eventhough, i can't guarantee that, I will fight for myself.




This is KOcaeli, Turkiye. This place keeps one of my happiest memories in life. I wish to come back here someday with a more established self. I want to meet my foster family and cherish our moments like how we used to do it last time.

I miss true nature........

A Journey to the East. March, 17th, 2010

Dancing has been my passion since a long time ago.
I tried to stop after SPM but it seemed to be coming back to me.
I'm unsure whether it came to me or the other way around.
Half part of me is naturally dedicated to it while another half is for 'TESL'.
It is like living in 2 different and distinct world.
Somehow, they both are connected to each other.

UITM Shah Alam..Is it time to say Goodbye??

I remembered the first time I got here.
I brought all my dreams and hopes with full spirit.
I was a fresh school-graduate and I barely knew where I was standing at that moment.
But, now, when I am about to leave UiTM, I am very sure where I am standing and where I am heading to.
I can see a bright future here and I don't want to make waste of it.

PRISMA SENI..where my heart seems to be..

Yes, it was difficult at first to blend in with the team in terms of style and communication. It is a learning process.
But, the patience, persistent and determination I offered seem to be fruitful.
I'm now feeling very sad to leave the team.
They are my family and close ones.
The bonding became stronger in every practices, shows and competitions.
When I got to know all these people of different walks of life, I began to care for them.
I've learned a lot from each an everyone of them.
I learned about life.
Dancing is the ticket for me to know more people and grab more experience in life.
I believe that this is the strongest reason why I continue to be in 'that' world.


My Journey in Prisma SENI... It was such a long, bumpy and uneven roads for me...

1. My first competition with the team..FESTIVAL TARI MAKUM 2009


Rampaian Asli and Zapin(Best Asli Group)




This is U-gi. Also danced during the festari makum 2009.
We got third place and 3 other awards.


2. FESTKUM 2009...the peak of all my difficulties..


Here, I met new friends from PESKA...They are as great friends as PRISMA..
It's just that we are separated by distance..

I believe that's all for today.. I think i'd have to pay more than RM10 for being more than 2hours in the cc...hehe.. However, I promise to share more pictures and experiences along my journey here as a TESLian, a dancer and my simple self in UiTM Shah Alam some other time..(a place filled with my bitter and sweet times)......taaaa..:)

TUesday, March 16, 2010

I slept at Kak Teh's house in Section 7 last night. Situated at the 'Comercial Centre'. We had an opening show at Taylor's College today for the Master Presentation occasion. It was an eye-opener to me while I was there. It was a different sight to see not many Malays around the Taylor's compound. I like the sight behind the lecture hall where it makes us feel as if we are standing at the sea-shore. Such a convenient place to study. The students whom I refer to all students of taylor's seem to be high-profile and very stylish in their own way. they seem to be focus in their study. That's a thing to remember about them.......